Let me share something pretty fu&*ing cool with you. About 2 months ago I envisioned a stage (remember I wrote about it, http://whereadoorcloses.blogspot.com/2011/09/my-stage.html) while walking home from dinner with friends I stopped at a new jazz/blues club that opened up right across the street from me (weird huh?). I walked in and my heart almost stopped. From the red of the curtain to the position of the musicians, I had seen this before I actually physically "seen" it, if that makes sense. I actually drew a sketch months ago in Minnesota of this exact moment.
As I walked into a very crowded bar a very kind gentleman gave his seat up for me. Little did I know that I had sat right next to the singer of the group that was playing that night. We start talking, I pitch the Dani & The Mad Men vision (because I TELL EVERYONE & THEIR MOM ABOUT IT) and he says "well you think you got what it takes so lets put you on stage and see what you got."
My reaction was sh&% IJ YHJKD^%&^$ G&*& DGSJ^*W()W*E HDKS&RWIUIO!!!!!!! Im about to sing on a stage in Manhattan, holy shit this is cool. This is my moment.
I got up on stage with not an ounce of nervousness, I went up there feeling like I was home. A home I have missed for so long, a home I gave up on at one point. A stage I learned how to love again. I stood and did impromptu jazz/blues and to be honest I don't remember what I sang but whatever it was it lead the crowd to ask for 2 more songs for me to sing. It's within this moment I give gratitude. It reaffirmed all that I have been doing behind the scenes with music, and that I am in fact NOT going bad shit crazy. I have been here less then a week and was just busting to get that microphone and I got much more then that. I got the stage I saw months ago and now a network of musicians within my neighborhood wanting to work with me.
I share this moment because I am a firm believer that if you go somewhere in mind first, you will go there in body second. To the first of many stages, to my many homes.
That's AWESOME! Super proud of you!
ReplyDeleteI can't even begin to express the shear excitement and utter nervousness just reading this, but your right in every way Dani, you found a way to make your inner world you outer world and create the reality you want! So proud of you, I wish I could have been there to see it!!!!
ReplyDeleteHeart Always,
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I DO love sharing the adventure...thanks for the support:-)
ReplyDeleteyou're living it fully--great fully. I read this by Elizabeth Lessor just after reading this. Thought it worked:
ReplyDeleteAnd finally, Vaclev Havel says:
Hope is a dimension of the soul, an orientation of the spirit, an orientation of the heart. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense regardless of how it turns out.
The only thing we can really ask for when we pray is the ability to trust, like Havel did, “that something makes sense.” We pray for the strength to trust in the purpose of everything we experience, every day, and everywhere. We pray for gratitude when our life is good and even when it is not so good. We pray to understand the deeper purpose of our struggles. Sometimes prayer lets us in on the secret of that purpose; sometimes when we pray we remain clueless, like “a wide open eye in the dark,” as Brother David Steindle-Rast says. Either way, prayer breaks us open and spreads our heart before the Friend.