The Progression

When navigating though a vision its funny the many directions it takes.  When I look at the space I created within a small little room in the massiveness of Manhattan I sometimes wonder if its real.  When you create something, sometimes you feel as if your the only one that believes it.  Maybe that's all it takes, perhaps that's all that's needed.  When I see the vision boards pill up and my ideas run wild in my book, I wonder when life will be breathed into it.  The progression of Dani & The Mad Men is unfolding in front of your eyes, I want to remember this hustle.  I want to remember the ups and the downs, the endless phone calls I make.  The leads I follow with a dead end, the leads I follow with a detour.  I sometimes want to scream, then I want to jump for joy.  Isn't this life?  I love that I can share this with you as most people with a vision give up.  I'm not that person.  You will hear me scream, I will be honest enough to tell you of my frustrations and the moments of complete gratitude.

When navigating through a vision there is no set way.  There isn't a path and dear god I wish sometimes there was a map.  I was told by a very well known Jazz musician that has been kind enough to take me under her wing, "be ready for the ride girl, there's going to be a lot more downs then ups and it all depends on how bad you want this."  That's with anything you do, that's with anything you protect within the walls of your mind.  This started for me 4 months ago and I can't give up on it however frustrating it seems at times.  The flood gates have been opened and I can't shut it off because I don't know how.  I am like a bear protecting her cub and I want you to say that I can't do (in fact no one has) perhaps that's an inner battle you fight when creating something out of thin air.

The love for Dani & The Mad Men is unconditional, I know it's going to take hustle and I know I'm going to have to break down some walls.  I want to remember this to perhaps give some faith to someone else that's creating something.  It's ups and downs but when I lay my head down at night and see myself in the final product I know then that its real.  Real and passionate to me, honest to myself, successful to the only person I answer to.  Its not a dream then I would only be a dreamer, it's not just a vision then only I could see it.  It's me, it's my arm and it's with me all the time.

As of right now.  The progression is that I have connected with professional fulltime musicians who are helping me, THANK YOU.  Without using names you would know who they are, I am utilizing them as a resource and the audition process starts tomorrow.

I want to remember this moment.  So that you and I know that its not just a dream, its a progression.  To my progression, theres no turning back.  I am thankful for my connections they didn't have to take me under their wing for that I am thankful.