My Stage

In this story we start with a stage, not just any stage but the platform I hold with the upmost protection in my mind.  When I stand on it I sometimes feel like I'm going to fall off the edge.  I sense the coolness of a slight breeze, the energy is unbelievably intoxicating.  The lights are warm and bright and beads of sweat drip down the back of my neck.   I can see faces not any that I can make out, I know they are there, watching and waiting.  The anticipation of them fuels my slight nervousness mostly caused by adrenal pumping through my veins.  I have arrived, I am home.  I am in no better place then in the center, band behind me.  I am doing this and it all feels a tad surreal and every fiber of my being knows that this is me.  Its always been me, it's always followed as sure as the shadow I cast.  Doesn't matter the distractions that seem to push it aside it always remains there.

There is no more important time then right now.  As I sit everyday conceptualizing my new project that is 100% mine,  I have become like a proud mommy protecting my newborn child.  Although it is in it's infancy, I write today while building on this new project at an incredible rate.   Never have I been so influenced, never has it felt so right.  The idea's flow like a raging river filling the holes I once couldn't see or possibly wasn't open to seeing.  The doors keep opening, where I don't have an answer suddenly an answer comes days later.  This new process couldn't have come at a better time and for once there is one thing thats not following me;

Doubt:  To fear, distrust, uncertain, is considered questionable or unlikely and a hesitation to believe.  

I threw my hands up in the air months ago and although I didn't have the answer when I wanted it, each day brings new enlightenment.  There is much to come, so many changes and this new adventure was supposed to happen regardless of how I got here.  Creating out of thin air removes doubt and fear and for that I am forever grateful as none has followed me.  Trusting the process is crucial even through the unanswered questions.

The world is my stage, the stage is my home.