N Y C

The saying goes if you can make it here you can make it anywhere.  Theres a reason someone said that and New York is totally different when you live here verse visiting.  Its also different when you move here by yourself.  The undercurrent of energy is completely intoxicating and before you know it your swimming in it.

The thing about this place is one its massive.  I mean you could walk and walk and get completely get lost within the concrete.  Second people are always on the go, they run really fast here.  Someone once told me something that has stuck with me he said " make sure you go at your own pace, you don't always have to keep up."  Talk to most New Yorkers and they will tell you this truth.  I was hardly here the first time so I didn't get it at first.  Now this second time I understand completely what they mean.  I didn't even know this but one day I was walking in SOHO and looked around me to find that we were all like a school of fish.  I dropped back and watched all the people continue on, HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN PART OF THE SCHOOL OF FISH without knowing? Going to the overall energy of those around me.  Now I know to go to my own beat and its amazing what new places I have found.  Its never wise to move too fast at anything, it will find you.

Its just the energy of 9 million people all on one island, that's something you can feel.  That's something I cant really describe, but you feel it when you fly into New York.  I feel it when I take one of many walks throughout the city.  I can feel it when I change neighborhoods but mostly the energy if not careful can take you and spit you out if it chooses.  This city is not the easiest to master, its loud and in your face.  It ignores you then sends you the biggest hug.  As the tides in the ocean change so does the flow within the city.  It gives you things all at once and then weeks will go by and I feel nothing from New York.  You have people passed out on the streets, you have woman on the Upper East wearing the most expensive fur.  You have the most massive buildings filled with banks and dripping with wealth surrounding you then I walk into my neighborhood and see the project's in the distance.  I mean you get the extremes in both directions here.  Its something you don't get in a day, or a month or 4 overtime you just start to see what this city can do to you.  What it can make out of you and also what it wont fake for you.

As of today I am still madly in love with New York.  It never stops feeding my curiosity and making me want to do and be better.  The learning curve here is unlike any other place in the whole world. I have my moments where I just don't get it but if this was all taken away from me I believe a small piece of myself would die of disappointment.  I'm glad I got to be here by myself, I'm glad I took a risk twice.  I regret nothing.