The hush. The quiet serenity of all eyes focused and all you can hear is a single breath between many. Makes me see that we all join in on something, together. The lights are as bright as I can remember and I can only make out certain faces. It may not be a huge crowd but I feel like the smaller ones are sometimes harder. Theres more focus, the energy more direct. From the moment the first note is played, all I can feel is energy. A good energy kind of scary at first because its so alive. So "there" with you.
People just love music. It moves you and makes you feel. It breaths life into your somewhat boring life. Makes you want to believe in something. I can say that we have played about 6 stages so far and every time the hush happens. I call it the hush because I have to sit through many other acts and the energy seems messy or unfocused. Some people bring it back, others lose it again. See the crowd as a whole are very smart they sense exactly what I sense on stage. They hear crap, they dislike crap. They know when somethings purely good, they buy into it.
The first stage I stepped on (in over a year and a half) something very transformative happened. I actually said it out loud, I said " I can feel the love." I got a crowd smiling back at me. Let me also add something here, it is very hard to grab the attention span of New Yorkers. They move so damn fast and to be honest they don't really give a shit. I knew then that something beautiful was happening.
We have to play small before we can play big, we have to put our time in. We have to pay some dues, even though it sucks sometimes..it is what it is until the next door opens. Its all about timing, it all happens when your ready. This crazy little adventure I have been on makes me trust with complete confidence that I will fall exactly where I need to. I believe in good music, I believe in a performer that takes you away from your everyday life. I believe in our music without a shadow of a doubt.
I believe I will have to perform for 60 people before I can stand in front of 60,000 people.
