Its the hardest part of love and loss. Its the hardest switch to make in your brain and to tell your heart that it just can't feel anymore. To head so fast in one direction and stop and slowly walk back the way you came. We want to fight, as if that would change things. It usually doesn't sometimes the hardest thing to do is to truly let go, to let someone go even when you don't feel justified. Sometimes when things get crazy the best thing to do is go away from it, cash your chips in and send it away with no expectation of a return. What you will find if you hold steady to this faith is something that will truly amaze you.
Just imagine all the emotional luggage we take with us throughout this journey. How heavy it becomes and how good we are at ignoring it and playing the game of pretend. The heavier it becomes the harder it is to identify and then eventually our knees give way and we are left wondering how the hell we got here. With every significant event is a new opportunity to reexamine the lesson behind it. See your part, see the others take what you need away from it and let it go. This is easier said then done, I know. I let my crash of this last year go multiple times. It would creep back in, I would let it stay and then I would wonder why my hands were holding something that didn't exist. I wondered why I would allow my heart to go back to that place when we were happy. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. These things take time. All good and real things take time to grow.
So when you let it go, don't be sad. Be so thankful for everything that it taught you. Be so grateful that whatever it was happened to you, was specific to you however "bad" your perception is. Be careful with how "bad" you label your experience. Misery and victimization loves to make a room in your house and stay for however long. You have control over this if not any other aspect of the situation, how you deal with it and how you bounce back is up to you. How you continue to love and find peace is up to you, how you forgive and let go is a process significant to you.
So it does sometimes creep in from time to time but I wrap it with love, peace and gratitude and send it on its way. Out the door, out of my house, I let it go...
