Persistance.

Persistance.  A word I have used, not just said but felt.  We use words all the time but to apply it to your life is different.  Its climbing up an imaginary mountain, with many drops along the way.  If you hold dear to this word it will pull you along especially when the doubt sets in.  Doubt will challenge, fear will inevitably set in.  Am I doing the right thing?  Am I following the right path?  Should I turn around to grounds that are more familiar?  Fear brought on by doubt is persistance's welcomed enemy.  Both are trying to prove something very important.  They are both trying to see if this is what you really want.  You need both in order to be genuin.

Persistance lessens the blow that fear can have in your life.  Fear can take your hand and lead you into what feels like circles.  It has a deathlike grip.  I have felt it and no matter how I breathe I still feel like Im suffocating.  I have learned to make friends with it though.  No matter how hard it gets sometimes I feel the fear and know its there because thats what makes me human.  Makes us all human.  For it is not sad but it is life and fear makes us authentic.  We are still that 3 year old scared that there might be monsters under the bed.  Its something that visits me often.  I think too often we glamorize a life's  journey and rarely speak of the moments that make us realize persistance.  Because where there is fear, there is fear's alter ego, persistance.  And thats the difference between letting fear control you and you making friends with fear and carrying on.  The bigger the risk, the stronger the fear.  The more genuin the life story the stronger the persistance. And they play a beautiful dance.  I have seen it.  They both know each others part, both understand why they are there.  I know persistance will always win so fears short stay is not something I fight.

We have become a society of fast things, instant everything. I have seen that authenticity is something that grows like a seed in the ground. The real things take time.  All the time they may need.  Nothing good happens overnight.  I think its persistance that keeps that seed in the ground, continuing to grow not trading the process in for something faster.  I know that if you have persistance on your side you can do it all.  If you feel it, like truly feel it you can continue on and when something like fear comes in you take it by the hand and show it perseverance, the sister to persistance.