Nice time to turn the page. Many pages, close a chapter of my life. As we wrap up our first album, I couldn't be more excited to start on the next album. In one word, eager. We started writing for the second album which is unnamed. I created it this way so it would welcome all ideas, nothing is written in stone. I wanted the question to be, where could it go? I think its important to be open. If I learned one thing about lyrics it is that you must go there. Really be and go there. Those around me helping me along will be allow to be them. It opens it up to the creative being.
Im excited for this second album even though the first isn't even complete. Im so grateful for this experience and now I'm ready for the next.
Heres to the second album and the first to come.
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Sunday, September 15, 2013
The Secret to Money.
Its a lonely road. Many turns ahead and no map. You will be without family, although they are never far away but they won't be there in the ways you so desperately need. You will lose friends, you will be broke. It will bring you to tears. It will be the biggest challenge of your life. You will be the only one passionate at times and many people will come and most will leave. You will feel crazy. You will be tired. You will have to juggle a lot. Ego's, opinions and motives get used to them. Only you hold the light, only you hold within the secrets you have always known. You will have to try over. You will be let down. You will continue to cry. Get used to struggle because within it there is a beautiful lesson, it hides like the dark of the night and then one day you will finally understand. Its there to make you richer and no one can take this away from you. No one.
I write this today for you as a summary of my last 2 years and things I have learned and am still learning. One may wonder what the point of all this is. It is the most alive I have ever felt. It allows me to have a choice. Not be put into a cookie cutter and told what I should expect out of life, or not living at all. Its created from within, all the things I have wanted I have made for myself. The true lesson in life is figuring out how this works in your own. Its not a secret. Its as simple as being aware of the thoughts you think. The feelings you have about the world. What you want is always an inner thing, lets not confuse this. We are told what to wear and what we should eat. We are told how to make money and that lots of it will make you happy. That doesn't work for everyone. One lesson I have gained is that I had to learn how to be happy now. I had to be happy when I had zero in my bank account and the truth is that I had no money. Not a penny to my name. I had to look at the world and define beauty for myself. What made me happy wasn't checking a number in an account that had my name on it (thats not who I am) what made me happy was sitting on a park bench watching a child try to fly a kite. Life is very simple. When I leave this world I will not care about the money I have, I will remember the inner joy I created from nothing when I didn't have societies value of everything. It is a very hard lesson to learn. I panicked at first and it got me down. I cried. Alone. A lot. You will have it and then you won't, money is fluid. But the way you think about it changes how you feel about it.
That day I watched a child play in the sun wanting so badly to get a kite off the ground. I saw how golden the sun made earth that day. I sat under a tree that was about to turn colors and on that day I could of had nothing or a million dollars and would have still felt the same way, happy.
I write this today for you as a summary of my last 2 years and things I have learned and am still learning. One may wonder what the point of all this is. It is the most alive I have ever felt. It allows me to have a choice. Not be put into a cookie cutter and told what I should expect out of life, or not living at all. Its created from within, all the things I have wanted I have made for myself. The true lesson in life is figuring out how this works in your own. Its not a secret. Its as simple as being aware of the thoughts you think. The feelings you have about the world. What you want is always an inner thing, lets not confuse this. We are told what to wear and what we should eat. We are told how to make money and that lots of it will make you happy. That doesn't work for everyone. One lesson I have gained is that I had to learn how to be happy now. I had to be happy when I had zero in my bank account and the truth is that I had no money. Not a penny to my name. I had to look at the world and define beauty for myself. What made me happy wasn't checking a number in an account that had my name on it (thats not who I am) what made me happy was sitting on a park bench watching a child try to fly a kite. Life is very simple. When I leave this world I will not care about the money I have, I will remember the inner joy I created from nothing when I didn't have societies value of everything. It is a very hard lesson to learn. I panicked at first and it got me down. I cried. Alone. A lot. You will have it and then you won't, money is fluid. But the way you think about it changes how you feel about it.
That day I watched a child play in the sun wanting so badly to get a kite off the ground. I saw how golden the sun made earth that day. I sat under a tree that was about to turn colors and on that day I could of had nothing or a million dollars and would have still felt the same way, happy.
Saturday, September 7, 2013
When Its Beautiful.
Perhaps its not what it seems, at first. Just a glimmering light amidst all the darkness. You can only think it, and never in your wildest will you fully see it's potential. Only you know what it took to get here. Only you felt all the emotions of choosing a different path. A path without a plan, a path without a map. It is then you have found the secret, that you are responsible for your own life.
Its been such a journey. From leaving the love I thought would have lasted. Broke, down, without things. It was then I picked a mic up to feel, something. But I didn't have an instrument, no musicians in sight but I began in that moment to sing. Solo. From time to time I still listen to those recordings, I find simple joy in knowing that I went back to what I knew. But the truth is that I knew nothing. Nothing that special. It started glimmering, but never did I think I would create a album. I hadn't even started yet. What did I know? Enough.
The next 2 years until present day I would have survived depression from a heartache, sometimes I still feel down. I have learned to channel it into music now. My mantra for the next 2 years was make something that once was ugly, beautiful and then share it.
We are about to release a record of 10 of the best songs that came from a chapter I am so happy to close. Joyful to start another go. In truth many songs came from this chapter of my life but these are my most profound moments. The ones good enough to write an album over.
I would be lying if I said that the greatest gift was him all along. He gave me such a crash that if I wouldn't have gone through it I wouldn't be the writer I am now. I learned to forgive which allowed me to heal and in doing so I saw the situation much clearer. I never wrote songs from anger only from a place of healing, when it reaches ears I hope they hear this. It was ugly at times, I remember crying my way through many of the songs I wrote. I used to feel silly and now I feel honored. To have been involved in something tragic and yet beautiful is a life lesson I take with me and wear like the gray hairs this breakup gave me.
These 10 songs represent a life. All different and equally transformative. The situations were private and real. All perfect ways to start an adventure of my life. When stripped of everything, I took a look at music and began to heal and grow.
This is your life. Never care what others will think if your intentions are good. We need brave art. Stand tall and know you will be hated and loved, thats life. Its so worth it. Then share it, all of it. I wonder if he thinks I hate him, if I saw him I would hug him and say thank you for being a chapter in my life that I am now ready to close but only when each song is beautiful. I'm finally ready.
Its been such a journey. From leaving the love I thought would have lasted. Broke, down, without things. It was then I picked a mic up to feel, something. But I didn't have an instrument, no musicians in sight but I began in that moment to sing. Solo. From time to time I still listen to those recordings, I find simple joy in knowing that I went back to what I knew. But the truth is that I knew nothing. Nothing that special. It started glimmering, but never did I think I would create a album. I hadn't even started yet. What did I know? Enough.
The next 2 years until present day I would have survived depression from a heartache, sometimes I still feel down. I have learned to channel it into music now. My mantra for the next 2 years was make something that once was ugly, beautiful and then share it.
We are about to release a record of 10 of the best songs that came from a chapter I am so happy to close. Joyful to start another go. In truth many songs came from this chapter of my life but these are my most profound moments. The ones good enough to write an album over.
I would be lying if I said that the greatest gift was him all along. He gave me such a crash that if I wouldn't have gone through it I wouldn't be the writer I am now. I learned to forgive which allowed me to heal and in doing so I saw the situation much clearer. I never wrote songs from anger only from a place of healing, when it reaches ears I hope they hear this. It was ugly at times, I remember crying my way through many of the songs I wrote. I used to feel silly and now I feel honored. To have been involved in something tragic and yet beautiful is a life lesson I take with me and wear like the gray hairs this breakup gave me.
These 10 songs represent a life. All different and equally transformative. The situations were private and real. All perfect ways to start an adventure of my life. When stripped of everything, I took a look at music and began to heal and grow.
This is your life. Never care what others will think if your intentions are good. We need brave art. Stand tall and know you will be hated and loved, thats life. Its so worth it. Then share it, all of it. I wonder if he thinks I hate him, if I saw him I would hug him and say thank you for being a chapter in my life that I am now ready to close but only when each song is beautiful. I'm finally ready.
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