The Secret to Money.

Its a lonely road.  Many turns ahead and no map.  You will be without family, although they are never far away but they won't be there in the ways you so desperately need.  You will lose friends, you will be broke.  It will bring you to tears.  It will be the biggest challenge of your life.  You will be the only one passionate at times and many people will come and most will leave.  You will feel crazy. You will be tired.  You will have to juggle a lot. Ego's, opinions and motives get used to them.  Only you hold the light, only you hold within the secrets you have always known.  You will have to try over. You will be let down.  You will continue to cry.  Get used to struggle because within it there is a beautiful lesson, it hides like the dark of the night and then one day you will finally understand.  Its there to make you richer and no one can take this away from you. No one.

I write this today for you as a summary of my last 2 years and things I have learned and am still learning.  One may wonder what the point of all this is.  It is the most alive I have ever felt.  It allows me to have a choice.  Not be put into a cookie cutter and told what I should expect out of life, or not living at all.  Its created from within, all the things I have wanted I have made for myself.  The true lesson in life is figuring out how this works in your own.  Its not a secret.  Its as simple as being aware of the thoughts you think.  The feelings you have about the world.  What you want is always an inner thing, lets not confuse this.  We are told what to wear and what we should eat. We are told how to make money and that lots of it will make you happy.  That doesn't work for everyone.  One lesson I have gained is that I had to learn how to be happy now.  I had to be happy when I had zero in my bank account and the truth is that I had no money.  Not a penny to my name.  I had to look at the world and define beauty for myself.  What made me happy wasn't checking a number in an account that had my name on it (thats not who I am) what made me happy was sitting on a park bench watching a child try to fly a kite.  Life is very simple. When I leave this world I will not care about the money I have, I will remember the inner joy I created from nothing when I didn't have societies value of everything.  It is a very hard lesson to learn.  I panicked at first and it got me down.  I cried. Alone. A lot.  You will have it and then you won't, money is fluid.  But the way you think about it changes how you feel about it.

That day I watched a child play in the sun wanting so badly to get a kite off the ground.  I saw how golden the sun made earth that day.  I sat under a tree that was about to turn colors and on that day I could of had nothing or a million dollars and would have still felt the same way, happy.