The 9 to 5ers. Keeping with the man and making money. The ones with the bonus, always an incentive. To keep you wanting. Then retirment comes maybe you're 60 or only just 40. That paycheck and raise sure feels good though. Not quite the boss but wotking towards something. Dear god does a vacation in the middle of Januray sound nice. But are you even relaxed? It's a nice controlled life. Then a tragity, perhaps a death makes life ever so fragile and even more real. Maybe it's cancer or a job layoff. Either way the flatline feels more like a pulse. Maybe you are living. You will get married and have kids but still stay awake in the dead of the night sometimes wondering. Always wondering, when it's quiet and when you are alone. In your cat in the hat neiborhood with your perfect lawn and your name inscribed coffee mug. Your perfect shelves stocked with your things at Walmart. That you buy because it's what makes you comefortable. It's a comforting life.
No matter the cost. It's worth fighting for and paying for. You get married and have kids. Raise kids which is a great joy. You find love in a hard place or get divorce which brings much understanding.
Then you have the dreamer. The no sky's the limit seekers. The ones lost without a map. The ups and downs of constant personal strife. The booze hits harder here, the reality of death is much too clear and often not a threat. You feel everything here perhaps the world sometimes. There is no paycheck. There is no god. There is nothing but silence of nature and perhaps your art. It is the loniliest place on earth. No one comes to visit and family even turns away in lack of understanding. You control nothing and wouldn't want it that way for life unfolds before the seeker. You have horrid delusions of depression and a disposition about life you think no one understands. You are an artist. Sculping away at your craft only unfolding before you. And only you. It's personal until you receive affirmations that what you sown has found a way.
Now tell me who's living?
Singer/songwriter who writes about the creative process. Following a dream is never easy. I write about what its really like when you decide to leave conformity and make your own path.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
To Be Sown.
In 3 months my first album has sold under 1000 units. It may not seem like a lot to you but to me I am very grateful. The goal with this album was to create honest and real pieces of music from scratch. To avoid auto tune and to record in under 3 takes. This we have accomplished with To Be Sown. Here's to the next 2 albums currently in the works and for genuin, honest and real music.
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