A Thousand.

The smell of her haunts you.
Like she left notes on the sheets.
Kitchen pans she once cooked in.
The tasting of the love she sowed.
She haunts you when you close your eyes.
It's enough to make a man not sleep.
In fear of thinking you kissed her,
When you didn't.
Touched her porcelain skin.
Knew what it meant to lay next to her.
Waking up with disappointment.
A let down.
Because she wasn't there.
And never was.
You are the one yearning.
Just to touch her skin,
One last time.
You would wait a thousand lives.
Be pulled through the trenches.
Eat nothing.
Drink piss and vinegar.
Forget everything you knew.
Never take another breath.
Because you loved her.
In at least your dreams,
You are with her again.
And that's worth sleeping.
A thousand times over.
Just to be with her one last time.
You would sleep your life away.
To live in that place.
At least there she was with you.
A thousand times over.
You would.